 | Random Thoughts Thought #1: The earth. Take it for what you will, but I tell you the earth itself can teach you everything you need to know about life. It's round (eternity) and we couldn't function without gravity (opposition.) We'd just kind of float around, all directionless. Sure it makes us fall down sometimes, but it's the only way we grow. Strangely, we spend most of our lives trying to figure out how best to "fight" it, when the reality is that we are much better off if we work with it, rather than against it. Stuff happens. Grow from it. And let me tell you an interesting thing about trials. They say it gets coldest just before the sun comes up. Do you believe that? Consider this: the winter solstice marks the shortest day of the year, or, in other words, the season should start warming up. The coldest months are january and february, but the solstice is in December. What does this mean? I see it as a reminder that things may not look like it, but they actually are getting better.
Thought #2: Hate Me Not Here's a fun idea: Stop it. If you hate me so much, take a second to look at yourself in the mirror and ask yourself "why?" Was it because I didn't do everything in my power to make your life better? The truth is that I did. Reconsider. Maybe I did something to you. I did some things to a lot of people, just as you did to me. I'm not proud of it, but it's a fact of life. We're human. Surely you can't hate all humans. Maybe you feel the way you do because I'm a little "atypical." So I've got personality. Is that really grounds for bitter hatred? How about this: You don't know me, just as I don't know you. This fact allows you no room for judgement on me. You're overlooking all my redeeming qualities and focusing on things you don't like, things you've never mentioned to me. Quit pretending like you weren't talking about me behind my back, and quit treating me like I'm stupid. I'm just as stupid as anyone else, including you. I have bent over backwards to be especially nice to you and I have given you the benefit of the doubt without asking anything of you. I ask something now. Stop it.
Thought #3: Diet As some of you may know, I have had serious weight problems in the past. I am currently a lot heavier than I would like to be, and I'm not exactly sure how I got this way. Maybe it had something to do with a diet of cake, pizza, soda, and popcorn. Yes, that might have something to do with it. So how on earth does a person draw the line between too little, just right, and too much? Ach! This is so frustrating!
Thought #4: Behavior I could spend weeks talking about it, but I'm mostly just going to tell you what I've learned in the past week or so. If you want to see something scary, make a goal to improve your behavior. Make it a good one. Watch yourself for one day. Just one day. It's kinda scary how many times you do what you were focusing on NOT doing, how easy you lose your focus, and how much you mess up. Keep watching yourself for a week. It isn't so scary anymore. It's so great that when we really try to get something right, it finally works out. Maybe after a long time, but it works.
Thought # 5: Love I don't believe in Valentine's Day. I believe that it, like most other holidays, was created by corporate america as a means to get you to consume more. I do believe in love. I have been working very hard on being more loving and have discovered that it starts within. Only after you truly love yourself can you love another. If you are having problems with others, may I suggest you take a look inward? Furthermore, I believe that one cannot adequately love friends until one can demonstrate love for random strangers and/or enemies. And I believe that one is not ready to find that "special" love until one has achieved love for oneself, random strangers, friends of all sorts, family, inanimate objects, life, and, most importantly, God.
Thought #6: Random WHAT HAPPENED TO WINTER!!! Maybe they just decided to skip it this time. I LOVE BORTSCH!!! I get paid in eight days. I can't believe EL PET ate half of that cake! Life is good. |